I keep getting letters from the love of my life, she's just wonderful. I wanted her to love me the way that I loved her, but he letters contain nothing about the matter of love. She just keeps them short and telling me about her life. She tried to stay away from the war topic, except for the line in each of the letters, that says, "Jimmy, take care of yourself." They were signed "Love Martha" but I don't think that is how she felt. Almost everyone here humps photographs, in my wallet, I keep 2 pictures of Martha, just so I wouldn't forget what she looked like. One letter she sent me came with a good luck charm. It is a pebble, she said that she had found it on the Jersey Shoreline. To me it is a token of her truest feeling toward me. But the day after Ted Lavender died, I went into my foxhole, and I started a fire. I burned every letter and the pictures of Martha I had. I just couldn't stand to be with her, if she didn't really love me. I hated her and loved her all at the same time. It was just so hard.
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I think its a good thing that your trying to get over her, because your head just isn't where it should be. You need to be focused on war and nothing else.
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't blame yourself for Ted's death. What could you have done to prevent it? We wern't ambushed. He was walking back from going to the bathroom and was shot out of no where. No one blames you Jimmy.
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